so. i noticed i havent really gone into details about my friends and stuff. i realized that its important to let you guys know how awkward my situation really is. ive got about three really close friends who i hang out with most of the time. theres other people i occasionally hang out with, but its almost always the four of us. we have the quiet kid, the annoying/whiny kid, the awkward kid, and me- the funny kid. excluding the times i want to kill the annoying one, i enjoy my friends a lot. we spend almost every friday together and most saturdays when nobodys got a game are with each other. its amazing. we spend a bunch of time together, know each other well, and are always there for support. we have so many inside jokes that i cant even write down. but heres the awkward part. the awkward one is attractive... and i mean attractive... he knows im gay- but hes really still getting used to it. i know hes straight, and i know i have no chance, but i just cant get over him. its hard cuz i'll be sitting close to him, see his smile, and then melt. which is hard to work around. hey- you wanna watch a mov-(melt)*squeee*-ie. considering him, my other friends, and i are pretty much inseperable- im stuck with it.
comment question- wtf am i supposed to do with this? i feel like im gonna die when im five feet away from him- its like fantasy-fuckin-land. any ideas?
Haha get him really drunk… jk. The best way to get over a crush is to fall for somebody else. How’s the situation w/ the french n the irish guy?
ReplyDeleteYou could also find something you don’t like about him (that turns you off) n concentrate on that… nothing very serious just something that he doesn’t agree but that’s important for you… I hope it helps.
When I commented here it showed 9:49am. Why is it Pacific time?
ReplyDeletei have no idea... ill change that soon enough. and irish boys out of the question- hes only gay when hes drunk or high- but like... hes reallllly gay when he is. frenchys too weird to get on- and i dont have an in(no way to talk to him through someone). i hae like zero options and thats why im refalling for this guy. he would be (or is, depending on how you look at it) an amazing fruit. if he were a younger member of his family, hed be out and wed be screwing. thats the worst part. i have amazing gaydar, its just down to whether the person is ready to come out or not.
ReplyDeletedude.. there was this guy... ok, is this guy... a good friend.. a gay man... hes "married" to an asshole.... i think he is so fucking hot and i just know that when i see him im mind-fucking/eye-fucking him big time... its funny though, ive known him for 10 years.... hes still hot, hotter with his new haircut, but we never hooked up, even though we tolly could have..
ReplyDeleteidk, maybe its high five, i am, hes not.. but really i think what gets me through it is that he and the "wife" are always together.... his partner is, imo, such a douche bag - loud, obnoxious, fat, fugly... its a real turn off... im thinking if we did ever hook up it would be a really obnoxious awkward three-way with "him", me and the boyfriend... gross...
course if they ever break up, dude im so there for him.... dry your tears baby, come to daddy..... eeeeew!!!
- cheers... david
that is exactly what i mean. but i always hate getting stuck with the best friend, cuz youll take it too far or think you can trust them- and then they get freaked out cuz youre gay/into them. if anything, it shows how gay they are- only closetboys are afraid of being considered fruits.
ReplyDeletetough one. I fell for my best friend. I was in love with him and I finally had to distance myself to stop those feelings which weren't going to be returned. It always gave me some good images for my nightly wank!! good luck with it. At least he knows you are gay..
ReplyDeletedrew: thats a cute as hell name- i cant say we've met before. i totally agree tho. i just need to be his friend for my other friends. it complicates things a little bit. funny story tho- my friends and i act really gay around each other(its kind of an inside joke). we talk bout blowing each other and shit, even though i know theyre straight- its sort of a thing we do cuz were comfortable with our sexuality. now that awkward (and amazingly attractive) boy has gotten to know us better, he makes gay jokes all the time, but i actually wanna screw him. he always seems uncomfortable in his sexuality. maybe i just want him too bad.
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