gayboy crushes hurt

I wanted to talk about an experience i had today. i was sitting at the mall waiting for my sister and mom to meet up with me, and a beautiful guy walked past. i mean beautiful. i could barely even think. he had the kind of hair that says PLAY WITH MEEEEE really loud. eyes that matched. very modern european facial structure. u know what the worst part was? it reminded me of b. the hair. the eyes. the face. it was all structured perfectly. so was b's. it made me feel hollow. i felt like something was missing. i wanted to just grab on to someone and never let go. it hurts just thinking about it- the perfect guys all remind me of each other. and i just want a teddy bear to squeeze. to dry my tears. thats all i really wanted to say. thanks for reading.
mikeytoo. out.

CLARIFICATION

My last post sparked some really insightful conversation. I'd like to clarify my previous statements. Think about this: have you ever had a "friend with benefits"? If you have, id like to get a comment about how you felt and how it ended up. If you think about it, FWB is really a relationship with sex and non-intimate relation. Im gonna start at the basics and work my way up here, so follow my logic:

1.You like sex. A lot. Too much almost. (im a mind reader, i swear)
2.Sex does not initiate a relationship by its own power. I can have sex with a hooker or have a one night stand and completely enjoy myself.
3.Relationships arent always good, easy to work with, obtainable, or pleasurable.

Because of axioms 1-3 i have proven that sex feels good, even without a relationship.
can we all agree about that?
(NOTE: by "feel good" i mean aim to climax. i realize there are many wrong ways to skin a cat.)

1.Sex without a relationship is good.
-Relationships are completely unimportant to the rest of this proof-
THIS NOW GOES REVERSE (ANALYSIS)
2.Consider all the forms of non-relational sex. Masturbation. Mutual masturbation. Friends With Benefits.
3.Look at friends with benefits as a step up from mutual masturbation.
4.Look at mutual masturbation as advanced masturbation.
5.Masturbation can be done in literally an infinite number of ways, all of which feel good.
6.Mutual masturbation, like masturbation can be done an infinite number of ways. all of which feel good.
7.The partner, in terms of mutual masturbation, doesnt matter. It still has the same goal: to feel good. No matter what, it approaches its goal, and feels good.
8.FWB can be done an infinite number of ways: Boys. Girls. Trans of every variety- All of which feel good.
9.The partner, in terms of FWB, doesnt matter. It still has the same goal: to feel good. No matter who does it, it approaches its goal, and feels good.
10.Boy.Girl.Trans. in terms of FWB, all feel good.
11.Explain to me where the "disgust" comes from.

From points 1-11, we can come to understand that pleasure is separate from sex and relationship. To claim that you only want to have sex with one type of person is arrogant in its nature (not arrogant with its negative connotation, just arrogant- overstepping ones bounds in terms of power). This was my earlier point. We all like sex. Why do we limit ourselves? Frankly- media. We're told we have to choose what we like, what we want to have sex with.

Dont get me wrong. I wont say theres not preference. Preference matters- kind of. I think that two people fairly close to each other shouldnt limit their experience as two humans because of some odd ideals instilled in them. I think sex brings us together on a natural level. I would have sex with most people i know. I want to screw almost constantly, and so do the people i know. Allow me to ask the most important question: Why not?

Thanks for reading. This took me a pretty long time. I would love to hear all your opinions.

lity and that "turning" is merely enlightenment of that human nature.

neuroscience, couldnt it really be a fight againt the inborn animal nature to fuck everything and anything? I posit that human nature is that of bisexua

bisexual desires. I was thinking- a lot of gays think that being gay/bi ends the fight against themselves. If we consider freudian psychology and modern

Textin this from the road... Lets hope it comes out alright. So. I had a question for everyone. Can ppl be "turned" gay? Perhaps to realize theyre inborn

So... ive had a bland last few days... except for two things- here i go:
The first weird thing is that my friend, crush, and longtime challenge, B , started t-bombing me a tonsies. its weird, he loves complimenting me, but it might just be cuz im a complimentary person, and he got used to it. its nice tho. he'll text me every once in a while, i'll text him every once in a while. a conversation will start. its pretty awesomesauce( ED:i originally typed that as awesome but decided to change it, awesomesauce is so much thicker than awesome). so yeah.

Thing the second:
i was texting eirey who's a totally "straight" boy... and i realized something. i was talking about what it means to be gay... i tried to explain it, but i remembered how the label doesnt really work. i just ended up saying "sex and relationships are neither integrally related nor mutually exclusive. i was telling him bout how guys dont need to reject sexual relations with someone because theyre "straight", just as i dont reject female relations because im "gay". lets face it- sex feels good no matter what, so why should we live in fear of it? we make sex(happen?), sex doesnt make us(well... not in the literal sense). feel free to limit your relationships to whatever works best for you, but sex, in moderation of course, is good for you. ive always said, try everything once- cuz guys are awesome, but girls are too. refuse labels- let sex be sex and love be love.

tokyo center, mike2 requesting touch-and-go, off to bigger and better.
tokyo center, mike2, out.